BTW It's beautiful out today. The sky is clear blue and the thin clouds are drifting slowly across. The weather is different today than all the other days because it just feels beautiful to me the breeze, everything. I need to go out more often because seriously I'm just not doing it but I need something to do! I wish my brain was smart enough to create music That's all I would do just play music, just make music my life pretty much. P.S I'm stoned. What a fcken time to write a blog. That's something I need to talk about my weed smoking. I can't fucking quit it's so hard like having it around everyday and just like it's apart of my brain now all it does is crave it when I don't have it for a few days. After Ivvavik I quit smoking up for 5 days and than all of a sudden I came back. It was so different the landscape, like Ivvavik was beautiful I would like there if I can! Wonder why all the caribou migrate there and further it's such a sight! I miss that place a lot and I will only be going there once in my lifetime unless I get rich and pay for a ticket up Hmmm....I met a quite cute man today, who came from Whitehorse. He has red hair and blue eyes with these nice tattoos on his back and arm! Just had to mention that he was the first good looking man who has come to stay here...and I actually wasn't stoned! LOL I'm off work at HV at 10:00 than I'm going to smoke a joint and walk home. I LOVE my job because I don't do anything just make permits and that's all. Get paid every month but it's money I wish that I can make more though! I need more money my parent's alway's spend all their money everytime they get paid that's how much bills are around here $4000 goes quick.I think tonight I'm going to drink a mickey that has been in my drawer for like 3 days no one has touched it I don't even know how it got there....so I might as well drink it. I haven't drank in so long it's crazy like I have drank at least 4 times since February and didn't get drunk. This is all for my parent's because I want to be a good child for them because this town is fucking small and so many shit can be heard of in like a day. But anyways, i think I should finish speaking now but I one last thing the other day that I was working I got my picture taken of off of tourists. They said I looked like girls from Thailand so I searched it up afterwords and it was like island place light blue water, it looked like a beautiful place. But they were telling me 'yeah you look like the girls we met in Thailand just beautiful'. I was so shocked no one has ever took my picture like that. I did that once to a boy once when I was a kid cause he was like gorgeous and had to get a picture of him to show my bestie. But that to me? Like I was flattered and of course there was other people in there so it made me blush. I just want to remember that story so that's why I'm writing it. Off work soon so I'm going to clean up and go home! Pce out I want to start off saying that from now on Tamara if you are reading this, I'am going to continue to blog again. I'm getting bored and I feel like writing. But anyways, to start off with today it is 4:03 pm and I feel the urge to write again because it's been so long. After hearing about what happened in Japan with the Tsunami and Earthquake I was devasted. I thought long about those people and how they were left with no where to go while children and parent's were swept away in an instant. Leaving families seperated from their loved ones and alone. This world needs change, and someday I hope that I can do something to help this world. Life is precious and I just want to see how far I can go and believe in myself.
Last night I stayed up until like five in the morning or something like that and yeah I was on my laptop just looking around for music that are old that I used to listen to, old band artists such as Led Zeppelin...noo Bieber crap. Roamed around on Mindsay and was trying to crack my old passwords to my old mindsay accounts from years ago which didn't work because my old hotmail address is gone and I can't remember at all what kind of password I would of used. I finally fell asleep after my eyes were shuting, woke up the next morning unexpectively at Twelve which is pretty early for someone who stayed up that long.
4:19PM....
4:20PM...
I feel proud of myself for making the right decisions, and learning that life is all about work because that's just the way it is. After you go to school you can get a job then work, go on vacations, maybe find the love of your life in school I don't know. But I'm happy right now and my decisions. My baby Pepper (my puppy) is adorable and I'M HAPPY!! My mom recommended me to go Edmonton Can't wait if it happens, because everything happens for a reason A CITYYY!! yaaayy
- Shall be writing a list of what I need for people and myself in a bit .
